Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Snow and tiny ditches

All my bragging about the excellent weather here has resulted in this: snow. It is that pretty, sweepable kind of snow, though (rhymes!). A good excuse to bundle up and wander around.
Here is something. Last week I went to the dentist. He told me that I have four cavities. Four! All is possible though, since I haven't been to the dentist since before H was born. And, pregnancy and nursing has brought out my sweet tooth (chocoholism, really), not to mention the around-the-clock eating (there were a few months when I ate a really ridiculous number of peanut butter pretzels between the hours of midnight and 5am (as an aside, I thought these were a just-in-Canada kind of thing, but have recently made a terrible discovery that they are sold in bulk at the Whole Foods: oh. noes.). This can't be good for teeth, right?

Still, I thought it would be prudent to get a second opinion before making new holes in my head. Indeed Dentist II says I only have two cavities, one of which is just a re-do of an old filling. I've never really been a second opinion kind of gal, but I'm sure glad I sought one out in this case. Plus, I have to be suspicious of any dentist who offers you credits for referring new patients/customers. Oh, and also who offers you botox, whaaat? So I'm pleased with my new dentist, Dr. Slootmaker (whose name is Dutch for ditch-digger.  "Kind of appropriate since that is sort of what I do". Tiny tooth ditches. Ew.)

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Weekend happenings

Found some neat books at the thrift store.... Lamb shanks in progress, together with over-documentation... Back to school for me.... Knitting ready to be cast off.... And more of the usual stuff.

Friday, January 25, 2013

So long

Grammie is back on the correct side of the border (though in an unfortunately governed city, at the moment. At least this makes Toronto slightly less miss-able), oh more sniffs.
Don't let the puffy jacket and foggy glasses fool you, though. That is just the early morning cool on the day of her departure. It feels semi-tropical here during the day, and it is delicious. I'm getting back into the Colorado swing of things. You know, eating bison and smiling at strangers.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Arctic dreams

So. Did I mention that we are going to the arctic this summer? I can't wait. I hope it is just like Arctic Air, except Finnish, and involving fewer airplanes in distress. 

These are some inspirational book covers for the project.

Monday, January 21, 2013

Foco in high contrast

We are back in sunny Colorado. And the sun does seem to shine extra-brightly here. Maybe it is just the contrast with grey, grey Toronto. The warm winter sun angles right under the roof overhang of this little bungalow and fills our little house with light.

H has been enjoying being reunited with all of his old toys.

Sadly the baby-proofing we did in the fall now seems comical with his new mobility and independence. 

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Oh, sniff.

Tomorrow is my last day in Toronto. Oh, I'm sad. I'm also terrified about ever being able to care for my child alone now that I am used to having lots of extra hands around, but that is not what I want to dwell on right now. 
Toronto. It's ugly. 
I'm going to admit that I've fiddled with most of these photos to bring out even a hint of colour from this grey grey landscape. 
It's ugly, but I love it. 
There are ghosts. 
And ghostly places.
I'm going to miss these walks.

Sunday, January 13, 2013


My little man-zini is nine months old! He's been an outside baby longer than an inside one. How did it happen?
Anyway, here is the summary of the ninth month: up-down-up-down-around-up-down-around-around-nom-nom-nom.

Heiko loves strings! I can hear his little excited-yell just looking at this.

Whaaaaa!!! This guy is great. Just wish he'd stop moving now and again for a photo.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Choices, choices, up-down-up

It has been a challenging couple of days 'round here in Lissie-land. By delaying some job-related decisions I put myself in a tricky position. I spent the last few days reconsidering some of my choices, and ultimately turning down a campus interview for a tenure-track position. It was a complex choice that I'm not intending to go into much detail about here. The micro-short form is that while tenure-track positions are few and far between (thus the campus interview being a Big Deal), the time that I have with my new little family is also so short, even when some days feel very very long. When I took a good, hard and truly honest look at the situation, that particular job wasn't worth it to me to make this life so hugely complicated.
The decision isn't entirely comfortable, of course (otherwise it wouldn't have been so hard to make). This is what academic women do, they make big sacrifices for work, right? In fact, most professional women would have made this sacrifice months and months ago, in the states anyway. So I feel guilty. I feel like a bad feminist. I feel like a bad do-it-all lady, I guess because I'm not (doing it all). Even as I write this I know how ridiculous and simplistic this idea is, but I'm still going to record it here, basically so I can look back and remember this (sorry to all non-me readers). 

All of the time I spent agonizing over this decision left me thinking how different things are now that Heiko is in our lives (duh), and how important it is just to savour the moments as they happen, instead of always thinking about future plans. Again, I feel like that is a kind of overly simplistic thing to write, but it is just the truth. 

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

His favourite book

H is starting to enjoy the job of pulling books off the shelf. Lucky for him, there are lots of books around here. He seems to really like this one.

Monday, January 7, 2013

Around town

I'm starting to realize that our time in Toronto is coming to a close for the season. I'm *almost* ready to go back to sunny Colorado, if only for the sunshine. I'll miss things though, like mmm well, just about everything. 
 Still, we've had lots of walks and lots of outings.
H socialized with dead animals at the St. Lawrence market. 
A good time was had by all. Well, except maybe that caribou. 

Friday, January 4, 2013

H and the Kittehs

Heiko met some fluffy kittehs the other day.